It's 3am guys.

This is just whatever, I'm bored and can't sleep.
So what I don't understand today is love, yes, love. I'm in love, but I'll never understand it... Honestly, when people say "love is magical" I want to tell at them and tell them they haven't experienced love. Love is a roller coaster, one day you're fine, the next day you're heading for a 50ft drop and there's no turning back! I don't know where this post is going and I kind of just wanted to type, but I think I should head to bed, I got a big day tomorrow... Not really hahaha!
Alrighty, see you guys soon!

I don't even know what to call this :/

This was going to be a "what I don't understand" but I deleted everything else, so forgive me for not removing parts like the first sentence, I couldn't figure a way to word it again.. If you're googling the school shooting for information, I did not write any information this is all just my personal thoughts.  This blog is like a "journal" to me, so please nothing rude. Thank you.
*I don't understand, is the Sandy Hook Elementary School shooting.. :/
How on earth could you go shoot 20 innocent children? For some reason I cannot keep the tv on anything but the news, I just want to see what they're discovering and I think part of me was hoping to see the kids playing and laughing.. Seeing their names on the news and all over twitter and other social media sites was just heart breaking, it was clearly heart breaking enough just knowing it happened, but hearing/reading the names just made it so much more real.  I was thinking "what would be worse, being the police that get the call and respond, being the first responders seeing the children (I guess that goes along with the police), or being a parent or loved one finding out your child isn't going to be coming out?"  Obviously the parent, but the others would have been way hard too.. Just seeing it on the news crushed my heart.. Those kids were the same age as my little cousin, that kid seriously lights up my day, and I couldn't imagine losing him.. :/
This guy also shot his own mom?! I couldn't believe that, I didn't want to believe any of this.. How could someone do this? And when one of the victims parents came out and did a press conference and said he's not mad at the shooter, man, you're a tough, tough guy! Kudos to you! That is seriously amazing that he's not wasting his energy being angry, he's actually wanting to help others!
All the stories of the teachers that protected the children, just remind me that there are good people in the world, and God just places them hear to watch over and protect us ♥

I can't even begin to imagine the pain Newtown, CT is going through!! I'm sending my love and prayers to you all!  Just know all of America is here praying and sending love your way! Even if you didn't know someone directly involved or touched by this, say a prayer for the town and keep praying!

**Disclaimer!
I am NOT trying to push religion/prayer on anyone.
I am NOT trying to force anyone to love.
I am NOT in any way shape or form trying to change your opinion on anything.

To be honest, I feel like this blog is just a jumbled mess, but I have so much running through my head that it just fit for now..

Shit I Don't Understand: Round 2

Before you even get started in reading this I am warning you I kinda hint at spoilers to the newest twilight movie, if you haven't see it, I'm letting you know in advance, I'm not giving the details or saying what happened, your choice if you don't want to read :)
This time I'll be going into detail, should probably go into detail about the last one too...

The first thing is, Starbucks, I love Starbucks, but one thing that irks me is they aren't open past like 9 o'clock.  I want me a damn double chocolately chip frap at like 10pm sometimes, like damn girl,  AND they're chocolate whipped cream is "seasonal" WHAT?! I love that stuff!!! Around here when I ask they're always like *gasp* "You want that?!" no shit head I just asked for it because I thought it'd be a funny joke... Like, no. I actually like a lot of freaking chocolate..

Now, mcdonalds, I went to get a cherry berry chiller, and SURPRISE! It's seasonal... I am so damn addicted those things...

I don't understand why things have to be "seasonal" like what the hell does that even mean? Like I get it's only out for that season, but really chocolate whipped cream is only popular in the end of summer/beginning of fall? how?!

I don't understand why people clap during movies, HEEEELLLOOOO the actors can't freaking hear you!  I went to the Twiligt Breaking Dawn Part2 premiere, and holy butt you would not believe the amount of freaks that freaking clapped and yelled at the screen one girl even yelled "you better shut the hell up" at whatever Aro had said, like no bitch you better shut hell up.  When I went to the premiere of part one people were clapping at that too, uuhhh, did you clap when you read the book?!  And then they got pissed off at a part in the movie, but I was just like for real idiots?! Are you really surprised, I mean c'mon that was obvio not in the book! Everyone in the movie theatre, was gasping for air, okay morons how else did you expect the movie to go? They don't just follow the book word for word.. duuh.
Done with my twilight rant.

I don't understand stupid people. Which hello?! Do I even have to explain that?!

I don't understand how people (my grandparents) can "hate" my hair because it's not "normal" uuuhhhh... yeah, okay... whatever.  They also hate my tattoo, because it's in memory of my mom, who they thought was (excuse my language, but my grandma's actual words, from what I've been told) "the bitch from the wrong side of the railroad tracks" mmmmmmhm.... Now, yeah..... This will have to be a different blog I'm just getting started! woop woop!

See ya'll next time :)

Random thoughts.

5 Random thoughts of the week! :)

1. We live in a sad world, we hate each other because of stupid things.
2. A real friend isn't happy when you're miserable. Or I guess isn't happy to see you hurt.
3. I don't understand the electoral college... And I don't see why we vote.
4. I hate when people wear their claddagh wrong.. I think I shall do a blog on that :)
5. Why do people create like pages for cancer?! I will never understand this... (see one of my first blogs!)


I'm thinking I should do one of these weekly or monthly.. We'll see :)
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Personal opinion :)

Hey everyone!! Sorry I've been gone so long, I've just had a ton of things happening in my life these last few weeks with starting school and family members being in the hospital and all, but I'm back! :)

Today, I'm doing my opinion on tattoos!

I do have a tattoo, it's something that means a lot to me! It has a very special meaning behind it!
I think if you're going to get a tattoo that you need to think about it thoroughly before you get it, this is something that will be on your body forever! Your kids, grand-kids, and great grand-kids will all see them and want to know the story behind them.  I think it's dumb to get something tattooed if it has no meaning, like getting a zombie tattooed on you because you think it looks cool? uhh.. newsflash, it looks tacky and like you were wasted when you got it.  I understand getting it if you have lived through a zombie apocalypse, but let's get real, they're probably won't be any tattoo artists around after zombies invade, I'd be surprised if anyone makes it through that. So back to the whole tattoo thing, don't get something because you think it's "totally awesome" now, make sure it has special meaning behind it.  I see so many people going to get tattoos of stupid shit (excuse my language) but why the heck would you want that on your body for life?! People who are like "well, there's that tattoo removal thing" uhhhhhhh! What?!  Why spend so much money on a tattoo and then turn around 20 years later and get it "removed" that shit just fades your tattoo so ya can't tell it's there, but why?! Like why waste so much money on a tattoo (they aren't like $10, the prices range!) just to spend even more money to "remove" it?  I'm betting that shit isn't cheap either..

I guess my point is, if you want a tattoo, don't regret later on.. Make it something special to you!


This post is going no where. 

Adios.

My Day!

Oh my where to begin... 

Well, my boyfriend of two years decided I wasn't worth being with anymore, cause we keep fighting, so instead of finally talking to me he decided I wasn't worth the time of day... Obviously if I was as important as he said I was he wouldn't be such a jerk off...  While he decided he didn't want to be with me I was in getting my hair done... I had to hide the fact that I was absolutely shocked, and the fact that I was really hurt.. You don't just wake up one morning and think "hmm... I don't want to be with her anymore" so obviously what do I think? He found someone else... Now it's just whatever, if you want to be with me, then fine, if not, fine.  

Right now the quotes I'm living by are "it takes two to tango" cause he tried to blame me.  

"Keep your chin up princess, if not the crown will fall"

"If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours.  If they don't, they never were."

Advice for the ladies:  If you get dumped, harsh word to use I know, but aye, it's the truth, don't be clingy it's gets you know where, if he wants to leave, let him.. He'll realize he just lost the best thing he'll ever get. It's his loss, you'll be okay in a few days, and that's when it'll hit him.. 

I don't really have much to say today, so hope you enjoy this.. 

byeeeeeee

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Relationships!

I see so many kids, like middle school kids, telling people how much they love their boyfriend or girlfriend and that they're meant to be, and yada yada and some I have even heard talk about having sex with them! LIKE WHAT?!  I've also seen so many unhealthy relationships, so I'll cover it all :) This will sort of be a rant, but there's going to be advice, if you just look past my grumpy-ness! 

Okay, so the middle schoolers, I get it we've all been there the first "real" boyfriend, usually doesn't happen till around 9th grade, when you're in high school, but it's happening younger now apparently.  Anyways, I understand you think you're in love and all that fun stuff, and you think he or she is your "first love" but it's all puppy love! When you get older you'll realize you really didn't love that person the way you thought you did. You're a child, you shouldn't be having sex, do you even know the risks?!  You could get pregnant if you aren't being safe, and even condoms aren't 100% safe, you need to wait till you for sure know you want to be with this person for the rest of your life, otherwise you have the chance of getting pregnant at a very young age or even getting an STD, that is some serious stuff! And if you are seeing an "older" person that could be considered rape. If you go around humping everyone, you're going to make it seem like you have "daddy issues" but I'm not here to preach to you about this stuff, you're parents can tell you all about this interesting stuff! 

Unhealthy relationships! 

I see girls treating there man like shit all the time, girl you are not a damn princess, he is not your slave! If you want to be treated like a queen, you better treat him like a king.  If that boy bends over backwards for you and is the sweetest guy ever to you, don't you think you better wake up and smell the roses?  You have an awesome man, who move the world for you and you treat him like last weeks garbage you forgot to put out. Get over yourself, girl! I know a girl who had been dating this guy for 2 years I believe and he was thinking of applying for a job 30 minutes away.  She broke up with him.  He said "the shitty part is I haven't even applied for the job yet!"  Come to find out two days later she already had a new "boy toy" when he confronted her about why she really broke up with him she cried.  Like, hi, don't play the poor me card, you did this to him! Don't cheat on your boyfriend of two years and expect him to be happy about it! This is the same girl, I don't like around my boyfriend....We had gone out for our anniversary and it just happened to be the restaurant she worked out, she had candy and of course had to bring it over to MY boyfriend, stood their for a good 15 minutes just staring at him....he thought it was normal....She didn't even look at me, or say a word to me, I realize you "were there first" but I am now his number one you don't have to like me sweet heart it's not your choice who he is with. Don't be coming to my table and stare at my man and expect me not to mind.  

Now boys, I realize your lives are video games, cars, money, bitches.  One we aren't your "bitches" you don't want us treating you like shit, don't treat us that way.  Ya know the saying "Treat me like a queen and I'll treat you like a king.  Treat me like a game, and I'll show you how it's played" We aren't kidding! We didn't just make that up cause it sounds cool or it's catchy! I understand you love video games a lot, but once you get a girlfriend you better realize you only play that when she's busy, sleeping, or with you!  Or you could learn to double task and text while you play. No girl wants to feel like a video game is more important than she is.  Your car is your baby...right...Well guess what, that girl you asked out 2 years ago, she's also your baby, if your car is broken, fix it.  But don't make plans with her and then be like "oh sorry, gotta fix my car" or "I can't hang out tonight, sorry I'm helping my buddy put in his subs." If you tell that girl  you can hang out, you better hang out with that girl! Your buddy can put his subs in without you, that girl is you're priority, no matter how long you've been together, she isn't going to wait around forever. If a girl just wants your money, kick her to the curb. It's normal for her to say "awe, I want a ring" but if she says "hey, can have about 50bucks, I need to buy some new clothes" bitch be trippin.  If she doesn't say "buy that for me" or "can I have some money" she is obviously not in the relationship for your doe. If you're busy and can't text her back, you need to tell her, "hey, I can't talk right now, but I'll text you when I'm done" just let her know you're busy, otherwise she'll worry that you're hurt or cheating, for me it's more of "omg is he hurt?" but then I realize he'll be fine, and I just need to give him time to do whatever he may be doing. And GIRLS DON'T TEXT HIM EVERY TWO SECONDS! Wanna know how to push him away? Be clingy, works every time. 

Anyways just treat each other like royalty, and don't try to dictate what each other do.  If your girlfriend or boyfriend wants to go out with his friends, don't say they can't, they're life does not revolve around you, they need some time to relax and if you tell them what to do they won't want to be with you much longer. 

I think that's all I have to say :)

Byeeeeeeeee ♥